Hey Guys & Dolls…it’s been a minute. I know you’ve been wondering “What’s up with her? Where has she been?” Okay, maybe you haven’t. In any event, I figured I’d just drop in and unload a little smidgeon of what’s been on my mind over the last few (yeah…more like eight) months or so.
Since last year I’ve taken up a new hobby — running. No, not running to the cupcake shop either. Long distance running. I’m currently training for the Chicago Marathon in October. I know I know, who the hell WANTS to run 26.2 miles, right? Hell, I’m not even sure how I got myself into this mess. I’ve been on a roll though, so hopefully I can cross the finish line in less time than it took Oprah to do the same.
Anyways, back to the reason I shared this little golden nugget with you. When I’m running, I’m always thinking about random things. Life. Family. Dragonflies — and why they keep hovering around me for no damn reason. During my last race (which was a 10K by the way…I ran the whole thing too…I SAY I RAN THE WHOLE DAMN THANG) my thoughts were out of control. Around mile 4 is when I realized that I am a totally different person than I was a year ago! I don’t know if this is a good or a bad thing just yet, but it’s definitely frightening to say the least. I thought about the various situations that presented themselves to me last year and how I handled or responded to them, and right there on the spot I came up with several reasons why those same responses were stupid as hell. “See what you should’ve said was…” or “See I would’ve done…” is all I kept hearing me tell myself. It’s kind of weird, you know? I feel…strong…empowered…something that I can’t seem to put my finger on. One thing is for sure though, I’m definitely in love with this woman. The new me. Part of it probably has something to do with the fact that she can wear skinny jeans without any stomach hanging over and eating the belt loops. Either way, she’s fab…so far.
What the hell am I going to do now with all of this “new me” floating around? I’m gonna win…that’s what.